New Job!!

Finally I have an interview with a Doctor’s office administrator tomorrow, and if all goes well I’ll start on Monday!! I know the nurses I’ve met like me. I think I’ve finally become pretty well managed with therapy and meds. It’s crazy that while on Adderal I can sleep at night finally. Makes me a whole lot brighter during the day, I’m only like one sandwich short of a picnic rather than forgetting the sandwiches altogether. This time has been wonderful for time with my grand-children. Things have been tight, but I do believe I can stay in my house a little longer. I had my car repossessed, but it just really isn’t that important. I’ll buy a rollable clunker with air after I’ve worked for a while, then focus on paying off debt and getting things together to start my tiny house. (of course my girls think I’m insane, but I’m aware of that, and they are aware I still want to do it) No real conflict there.

My dogs are going to be feeling neglected after I’ve had so much time with them. They are such sweet girls. The journey continues – with much more serenity. I’m not a religious person, but spirituality is the thing I try to focus on. This time has really been good for learning real trust in the God I’ve come to sort of understand. (God = love, pretty simple)

I’m drawing tiny house plans on graph paper so I can measure things realistically, my biggest problem is that I would like a small soaking tub and it’s really hard to find one less that 40 inches in diameter. I’m going to ask permission to connect to some other great blogs soon so I can share the joy of simple living. I’ve sold lots of stuff, and I’m getting ready to donate quite a bit, and it feels liberating to get rid of all of this stuff. I’ve been in this house a long time, and I found things in the attic that went up there when we bought the house 23 years ago. I’m really lousy at managing money so I still owe a lot, and now that we’ve been annexed by Memphis most of us owe more on our houses than they are worth right now. That is one of the main reasons I want a tiny house, and I want to make it accessible for the vertically challenged as I’m not quite 5′ tall. Designing and building it myself with make that possible. Plus I’m not so much into “roughing” it so I am going to have to plan on stuff, and I want to do solar so I can be independent of the oh so expensive electric bills. I’ll try to do a better job as I’ve only posted twice in  4 months.

Adventures in Change!

How much of myself do I share with the world. I’m not anyone special, except to my family and some of my former patients. Actually a lot of my former patients, and that’s about all I wanted in life in the long run was to make a difference for someone. I still want to do that! Menopause and ADHD have kicked my butt. My memory is shot, unless I get hyper-focused on something I’m really interested in, then I remember totally useless trivia. It’s really frustrating sometimes. I’ve been unemployed for 16 of the last 18 months. I’d never been fired in my life, haven’t had to look for a job for over 25 yrs. I worked at the same hospital for 23 yrs, I was agency and ended up hiring on.

Now I’ve been fired twice, exactly a year apart Oct 3 2011 and Oct 3 2012. I don’t have any concept of time and people were having to remind me to do stuff. I believe it’s getting better. I’ve had insomnia for about 5 years, which certainly doesn’t help. The weirdest thing is how calm I feel. The second job I lost, when I realized what day it was, it immediately became a God thing (honestly, not a dogma God, just love). Time for me to learn new lessons, and they will only be as hard as I make them. I’m not trying to control things I can’t and I don’t have to worry about my kids because they’re grown. It’s just me and my animals. I’ve thought about a lot of things, even when (if) I ever find a job, I want to completely reduce my space. I would love a tiny house, and have thought of RV living for a while.

For selfish reasons, more than green reasons, I want solar panels, so I can live off the grid. The lower environmental impact will just be a added benefit. I’m trying to discover my bliss and then follow it. I’m going to downsize and sell most of the things I have. I know what I want most is a small personal space and the ability to travel – a lot – which means wheels. I’ll find some other way to make a living. I’ve discovered I really don’t need much at all. I do have things I’m quite partial to, like my Cuisinart Keurig machine, and a lot of books. I have been trying to weed through the books, because I have quite a few in print, audio and e-book. (Kindle mostly) I’m a little bit overboard as a bibliophile!! I need to keep the digital audio and e-books, then do some extreme reduction in the amount of books I keep. I’ve got a small ladder bookcase that I’m going to try to hold all the books I keep, then get rid of what doesn’t fit.

So – first step is to simplify and sell everything, get a cheap car and get rid of that note. (no more MINI Coopers for a while, but I’ll live) I sure miss those babies, I was fortunate enough to drive a convertible for 6 years and a Countryman for 1 year (supercharge and turbo versions of course). I figure I got to have 2 versions of my dream car, which is more than a lot of people get. So generally, as my Dad used to say, I am loved and life is good! It’s time to reconnect with family and be what they need, not my absentminded, birthday/holiday card forgetting typical self. Here begins a new journey, or season in my life, and I’m going to try and share just in case I find more like minded people that I can help by sharing my future mistakes with. As a very dear friend of mine used to say on her answering machine – “Have a good day, unless you have other plans!” 😉